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"Let's add shades of Love, Peace had Happiness on the canvas of Life"   

Some days I want to Live… Some days I want to die…   Some days I want to explore… Some days I think its over… Some days are good… Some days are bad… Some days I am strong… Some days I feel weak… Some days I understand… Some days I feel lost… Some days I feel Life is beautiful... Some days I just hope it could be… Some days I feel everything will be alright… Some days I just wish to come it true…

Aye   zindagi ab tere hi hawale hai hum…. Tujhi ko apna mankar, ab khud ko jana hai… Itne dur akar, ab aage kaha jana hai…. Ab tu hi meri aarzo, tu hi fasana hai…. Aye zindagi tujhe hi apna mana hai…… Jaise jalti hui dhoop me chav mil gayi ho…. Jaise kisi sagar ko kinara koi mil gaya….. Chalte hue raahi ko sath koi mil gaya…. Aye zindagi tune hi apna maana hai….. The rahe hum zindagi teri in uljhano me….. Ab sulajh kar jaise khud se khudi ko paa liya…. Sath tera hi paakar aye zindagi…. Jaise maine khuda ko paa liya…..

What to do, when things don’t favor you…. You can listen to your heart, But forced to act by your mind.… How could I figure it out, The way to happiness, the way to my dreams…. What to do when you can’t find the way, To chase your dreams, to get what you really want…. O God tell me what to do now, When you can give answer to all the questions…. What to do when I can’t able to move the wind…. What to do when my heart clash with my mind…. When many things to tell….many things to resolve…. But thanks to you God, at least I could realize, What I actually want in my life…..

Zindagi guzar jaayegi ahista ahista, Ye waqt dagmagaayega ahista ahista Tum mujhe yaad rakhoge kuch der, Phir ye yaad bhi mit jayegi ahista ahista, Zindagi guzar jayegi ahista ahista… Khamoshi ka fasana tha, Wo waqt bhi purana tha, Kuch dur tak yu chale the raaho me, Fir ye raahein bhi mud jayengi ahista ahista, Zindagi guzar jayegi ahista ahista… Na koi shikwa na koi gila hoga, Zindagi ka ye safar yu hi pura hoga, Na hum awaaj denge na tum agar, Fir ye awaaj bhi band ho jayegi ahista ahista, Zindagi gujar jayegi ahista ahista…

Mere muskurane ki vajah bhi tu hai, mere rone ki vajah bhi tu hai.... mere gungunane ki vajah bhi tu hai... meri khamosi ki vajah bhi tu hai... Meri kamyaabi ki vajah bhi tu hai... meri nakaami ki vajah bhi tu hai... mere sapno ki vajah bhi tu hai... mere likhne ki vajah bhi tu hai... Tere paas aane ki vajah bhi tu hai... tujhse dur jaane ki vajah bhi tu hai... Har jagah tu hi tu kyu hai... or agar hai to ab kyu hai...

Ek shayar ki shayari hai zindagi…. To kisi kavi ki kalpana bhi hai zindagi…. Ugate hue suraj ki kiran si hai zindagi….. To dhalte hue chand sib hi hai zindagi…. Kahin such ka sagar hai zindagi…. To dukh ka samandar bhi hai zindagi…. Kai uljhe hue sawaal hai zindagi….. To paheliyo me chupe jawaab bhi hai zindagi…. Saath chalte raahiyo ka karwa hai zindagi…. Kisi rahgir se pooch to ek karwan hai zindagi…. Kisi kalakaar se pooch to ek kala hai zindagi…. Rishto bhi bandhi ek dor hai zindagi…. Duniya me yu ane ka karwa hai zindagi…. To duniya se chale jaane ka silsila bhi hai zindagi…. Kabhi khwabo ka silsila hai zindagi..... To aaina e haqiqat bhi hai zindagi....

It was you who make me realize... What I always wanted from Life… What I always wish to get in Life… It was you who make me recognize… The real I, me myself to my life.. It was you who shows love to me… But it was me who could not realize It was you who makes every effort to make me understand… But it was me who never tried to understand… It was you who wanted to listen me just few words… But it was me who never ever spoke even a single word… It was you express your every thought to me… And it was me who never show my feelings even to me…

I was searching for the answers that evaded me so long….. What I am trying to solve…. What I am resolve… It’s been so long… Words kept me awake…. All night and day, making me so confused and restless… I was sinking into the web of wishes… Of the long lost past…. I let my life down again & again…. That I was not wishing for it…. I killed my inner voice to come out…. But it calls me again and again…. But gradually I have started finding the way…… What is happening with me…. What things keep changing me… Why I am restless…. Why I am so confused…. In the midst of the night…. I am succeed to find a way…. I have got all the answer…. Yes, it was you…. It was you… And only You…!!!!

Consciously, I ask my sub conscious to supply me with some words.....to send up the thoughts which I could not able to realize for so long....and the words are: I'll never tell you, I can't tell you... the truth abt me, the truth abt you... But that doesn't mean I m lying to you... when I talk about you, when I talk about me.... It's just that I hide or suspect that I do.... what I know about me, what I know about you.... when I never told you...when I never told to me... why do I tell it now.... If ever you find, the me that is me.... I'll have to tell you...what I think about you..... I'll never do... when I talk about you, when I talk about me.... because its true....because its true... I'll never do....